EMBRACE THE CHANGE

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I was in Zumba yesterday feeling quite a bit bigger than the other girls in the class and largely out of shape; to say that I have not been conditioning my body is an understatement! I was running 5 to 6 miles a day 3 to 5 days a week a couple of months ago, but I started having severe pain in my right knee and had to stop. After that, I felt a bit lost with my exercise routine. Having a very fit best friend as a yoga instructor and another who made a career from training and entering fitness competitions, there is a constant reminder not to let myself go. Now, I consider myself a normal eater, and people have stated that I eat pretty clean, but it's all relative because in some of my groups of friends I seem very fit, but in others I seem like the largest most uneducated (health wise) there is. No, I don't feed my children cake and ice cream every day, but if they want it, I will allow it with good behavior! And no, I don't really reward with food always, but that just so happens to be my son's favorite thing and he could stand to put on a few pounds! Anyways, not trying to go into my life's specific methods for raising kids, or to be explaining myself so that I'm not judged; judgy people will judge no matter how perfect you try to be. I at least realize that what works for my family and myself is best, and forget the rest! So here I am in Zumba, my second class in a week...second Zumba class in years actually, and I realize I need to step up my game! I am not as cool as I once was! I used to be thin, constant in routine, consistently energetic, and unstoppable with anything I set out to do, but man have things changed! I'm not expecting to look like my 21-year-old self again, but anything close to that would be awesome!! My motto is "if you have a problem and have the ability to change it, but aren't, you shouldn't complain if you're doing nothing about it!" So, I will keep going until I feel my best! And then I'll continue to go so that I don't have to jump back over this hurdle again! After all, exercise is just as important to our health as eating properly! If I do a little of both, I can find a happy balance! I read a quote that went something like this: I'm stuck in the middle of wanting to look good in a bathing suit, and wanting to eat delicious food (which I could also add...and drink delicious red wine, too)! I like to live! I want nachos, hot dogs, and beer at a football game, I want a margarita with tacos and burritos in my favorite Mexican restaurants, and I want a delicious red with a nice steak dinner. Heck, at the end of the day with a one and three year old, sometimes I feel like it's a hard earned right (and possibly a need) to relax from my chaotic day! But back to fitness since it's obvious I need it from all of this "living" I like to do! My family is my priority, so naturally my fitness gets placed on the back burner more than I'd like to admit. I've read & heard so many times that a mother must meet her own needs first, and everything else will simply fall into place; as hard as it is for me to put myself first, I am trying this tactic in hopes that my hard work, diverted attentions, & multi-faceted demands are met from letting the universe take over. Sometimes we have to believe in the process, believe in existing with a purpose instead of being apprehensive, terrified, or anxious about what is to come. There truly is a purpose for all that has, is, & will come(coming). I truly believe we must let go & embrace life's process. So here's me listening to my soul, following my heart, letting go of the anticipation, breaking through the barriers, and overcoming the obstacles to reach each next step. Follow me, if you will, on this journey! Namaste...